Poetry
BEAUTY & PASSION OVERFLOWING
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Heels
© Monica S. Martinez -
Crave you
Like an addict needing the heroin
To flow through his veins
It’s insane imagining the things I’d do with you
While driving home images of you sewn inside of my head
Spread across my bed
The adrenaline rushed, face flustered
At the thought of being in your embrace
Bonded by these feelings I find myself day dreaming
And it’s sickening the way I get all giddy over you
Eyes flickering with excitement
You – you have my full attention when I’m faced in your direction
Have I mentioned I want you like no other?
The way you just stand there
And tempt me with your style
I pull away because in time – in time you will belong
Oh, how I long for you
Find it hard to concentrate
So, I sit and contemplate on how to achieve gratification
Of getting you
Defenseless around you
All guards are down
My frown becomes a smile
I mean we can walk miles together
Lusting to have you
It’s worse than a pregnant women’s midnight craving
Enslaved by your looks
You well
You
You have me hooked
It’s an exhilarating rush as all eyes on us
All the other women staring
Wishing you belonged to them
And I finally have you with no restriction
I can write a fiction novel about
The experiences we will share
I’d swear I’d call it the sexy chronicles
The things you make me want to submit to
Every inch of you
Has me ecstatic
Tantalizing, teasing and in the end, you do all the pleasing
You make me feel incredibly sexy
Especially when I put this little black dress
We test waters unimaginable
I feel untamed
And ready to lose control
So, I succumb to my desires
And fulfill my needs
Having your restraints tighten up against me
Well let’s just say it does it for me
So, I’ll forever be your addict
With no need for counseling
You see I’m so glad I’ve purchased you
Because High heels you’re the real deal
And These Heels, these heels aint made for walking
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If I Undressed My Truths
© Monica S. Martinez -
If I undressed my truths
And he saw the ugly
Would he stay?
I friend zoned him
Three months and counting
But for him it was love at first sight
Maybe I wanted him not to want me anymore
I stared into his eyes
Seeking a response
As he looked away
I felt the sting in my heart
After all this was the part I was waiting for
His eyes bore sorrow
Reaching for me
Pulling me in slowly
Whispering
“I’m not going anywhere
And you, you can’t scare me off”
The tears slowly ran down my face
My life was fifty shades of fucked up
And he loved me unconditionally
But…Was I worthy enough to receive his love?
After all my daddy loved us differently
Those were the old days
Deep down I knew I couldn’t love him the way he needed
I screamed you can’t love me
I’m damaged goods
Everything I touch someway somehow leaves
You’ll just be everything to remind me
Why love doesn’t exist
That no matter what one does?
It always ends with pain and sorrow
My body was borrowed and
I’m still left dealing with the demons
And well you, you and this baby will remind me of them
My failed relationships
I can’t stay
My truths can’t handle your forgiveness
So, leave
Leave me in this ugliness
You are far too kind to want to unpack my baggage
Leave my suitcase right here in this corner
I’m much more comfortable this way
I needed him to walk away
Instead he reached for my hands
I promise to love you no matter what rivers you need to swim in
I, I couldn’t let him in
He begged and pleaded
This isn’t your child
Why would you want to raise someone else’s and pretend?
I’m just not fit enough to love you
His eyes swelled with tears
And I was facing my fears
“This baby can be ours” he responded
NO
I’m scheduled to terminate
Please vacate my premises
And let me drown in my sorrows
It’s been twenty three years since he’s walked out my door feeling defeated
And if given the opportunity to make amends
I’d let him know that I think of him often
And I regret that I wasn’t fit enough to love him
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Kneel
© Monica S. Martinez -
I want you to kneel before me
And grace what belongs to you
Drink from the faucet in which you make drip
Taste with your tongue
Unleash the song that hasn’t been sung
Wrap your hands around my waist
place your face close to my lips
And give her the kiss of a lifetime
Dine
Savor my sweet nectar
We become electricity
My walls are your surge protecto
The negative plus the positive
put us together
And watch sparks ignite
I'm going to leave my scent on your lips
Like the canine who marks her territory
We – we can make history
Right here right now
As you kneel
Allow me to feed you from the fountain
Of which will keep you young
Having you just like an addict
Strung
Kneel before me and pray to my goddess
Confess your deepest desires
Close your eyes to explore
The sweetest sugar cane walls
Kneel before me
My legs on your shoulder
While you grab hold of her
Spreading her apart
Create your art
Preferably a masterpiece
Decrease your need for speed
Slowly become a private investigator
searching for clues
Getting every single crevice
Kneel before me
Take me on a journey
Just us two
Where the stars meet in the galaxies
Shinning ever so brightly
Kneel before me
Let me feel you through my soul
Take control
Making me tremble
Resemble my insides
Find your home
while tones of pleasure
Form from my mouth
Daddy
Look in my eyes
I know you want to be inside
because I
I have the supplies you need
To nourish your body
Let your tongue collide
With the oceans of pleasures
Creating my tsunami
I want you to kneel before me
Set what needs to be free
you see daddy
Your tongue
your tongue is the key
So please kneel before me
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DADDY
© Monica S. Martinez -
Daddy never showed us our worth
He was too busy undressing our innocence
Said we taunted him with our curves
And so, what if it was just a smile
Unwelcomed advances leaving us uncomfortable and confused
Though soon it became natural
For Daddy’s hands cascaded up our thighs
Teaching us to lie and keep secrets
Secrets that would prove too heavy of a burden to carry
It was the price we paid for him to be our first
Because you never forget your first
And silently like a ninja he crept upstairs
To take what was rightly his
One by one our pleas didn’t prevent him from stopping
Crying ourselves a river
Laying numb as he invaded our walls
And now we’re left here to pick up the pieces
And live the American Dream
They say in order for you to heal one must learn to forgive
Surely, they hadn’t experienced half of this pain
Where nights when you said no
Led to your defense mechanism of the stories to be told
Because the bruise was evidence of you being disobedient
These therapists were clueless
Couldn’t even phantom the idea of being so scared
One couldn’t find the strength to scream
Because your voice box disappeared
So instead you used your hands for sign language
In hopes that he understood that No Meant No
Some nights when rain fall would come
We lean our head outside in order
To be ease the pain and be reborn
Maybe just maybe if we could erase his smell
We wouldn’t have his stench probing at our nose
or him hushing us behind mommies back with his fingertips
Though the therapist said we were strong and resilient
And we could get pass “this”
Only she never knew what “This” was
We never spoke “this” into existence
Because if we didn’t speak about it then it didn’t happen
So, you see there’s not always a happy ending to all stories
After all we were liars in mommy’s eyes to our surprise
Now
Infidelity it plays a huge part in who we’ve become
couldn’t be faithful even if our lives depended on it
Although we crave love
We just don’t know what it is
And we hurt those who we come in contact with
Though I want to say to say it’s not intentional
It’s just how this story unfolds
Not knowing how to break this cycle to teach our daughters
So, we continue our search
In hopes that one day we will find our worth
But until then
let me apologize to all those I’ve hurt
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Not My Choice
© Monica S. Martinez -
Ms. Martinez, congratulations are in order
You are twelve weeks into your pregnancy
Now lie back and let’s listen to the sweet sounds of the heartbeat
The mere thought of you growing inside of me
Gave me life
I imagined all the changes that my body would go through
As you grew depending on me to give you the proper nutrients
All the weight I would gain
Knowing every pound would be worth it
And every stretch mark earned
I envisioned of the nights that you would wake me up to feed you
How I would hold you in my arms close to my heart
cooing at you
With promises to protect you
And love you till my dying breath
I knew you were a boy even though the sonogram didn’t say so
I’ve often wonder what you would have looked like
Maybe blonde locks like your brother
Hazel eyes like your daddy
Your skin olive like your grandmother’s
And maybe, just maybe you would possess my smile
You were to grow to be a good man I was certain of it
A protector of your siblings
Your brother who is two years younger
Honestly needs you now just the way I wanted you then
But my dream would come to an abrupt end
I never got to hold you
And I sure as hell didn’t protect you
Though it’s been 29 years
I still can’t help myself from crying
I’ve questioned every other pregnancy
Especially the one of your sister who never came to be
You see she was almost at term when I took that fatal fall
Two more miscarriages led to me to discard yet another life
Because I just couldn’t deal with any more pain & disappointments
Although your brother by my side to remind me
That true love did indeed exist
I couldn’t comprehend then because somehow I thought I was being punished
For allowing your father to force me into that clinic and taking you away from me.
I know you know by now
I finally got the courage to walk away and
I was gifted with another child
Your baby brother
Who fought for his life in that incubator?
And when I look at them and I’m reminded of would could have been
I hope you can forgive me for not having a voice
Because I was too scared your daddy would have left
And I hope when we meet in heaven you do not turn away from me
Because it was not my choice
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Ready set action
© Monica S. Martinez Come take a sip of my Dulce de Leche
As it flows like silk across your chin
Daddy it’s no sin
Drink as if you were dehydrated
Pretend you’re a star in an X-rated movie
Do me baby like you never done before
Yes, Melissa Morgan sang it best
just put my body to the test
and make sure you ace it
Cuz I want to grade it
And give you an A
let me be your teacher
Should you need direction
I can give you lessons on how to please my secret section
Ready, set, action
Let the licking begin
kiss my pearl
Till it’s nice and hard
Insert your fingers one by one
Trust I don’t mind if you’re a messy eater
So, long as you please her
Remember to lick your plate clean
Make sure I scream
You might have to put in extra work
To make me squirt
My sweet taste you’ll enjoy
Let me show you how to use that toy
Place your tongue in my slits
Take that bullet and let it sit on my clit
Let it vibrate
As I continue to gyrate my hips on your lips
Higher I’ll shout
Keep sliding your tongue in and out
Make me cum Daddy
Till the hotness of it slides down your throat
Don’t choke on it now
Come give me a taste
As you place your manhood deep inside
Making me cry in pleasure
Make me shiver
As my lips quiver
Let my river flow
On your shaft
Making love is a craft
But can we pretend this is our first draft
So, we can do a repeat
Know that I’ll always be your lady in the street
And you’re freak in the bed
Daddy I’ll beg for your loving
Keep rubbing your manhood
On my slits
Let our bodies press up against one another
Smother my underground with your fluids
Yeah Daddy we can do this
Again, and again
I’ll be Barbie you be my Ken
Like writing this on paper from my pen
Let our movie begin
Ready, Set, Action!
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